This could probably be my most tl;dr journal entry yet because not only is this the end of the year, it's also the end of a long and eventful decade, would you believe that?! If you want me to cut this journal LJ style, just ask, because I can.
Let's begin with 2009 and man what a year this has been. I've done like, loads of things I've wanted to do for a really long time and actually done some [albeit not all], like finally getting a job! Sure the 5 month wait for it was driving me insane, but now that I actually get paid to put books back and tidy them, it's worth it, and the amount of money I've ended up getting each month so far really shows [I'm not telling you, that's a
big secret].
But that came with a price, and that was giving up my old days at the charity shop, and the day I ended up quitting was one of the worst days ever. That pretty much backlashed when the shop actually shut down 3 months ago, which actually pissed me off because there was no NEED for the rent to go up on shops like that which are struggling to keep up, and it seems, than many other places I've shopped in have fallen the same route. Everywhere I look it's slowly becoming a ghost town around here. I really hope the recession just goes away and never comes back.
Other highs and lows of the year include:
God stuff
+ going to my first convention ever, the London MCM expo. There is zero chance that I will forget that day, and everyone that I met and hung out with there made it so special. I hope that in the future I become a regular there.
+ going to Thorpe Park that day in May. That's perhaps the closest to a holiday I've had in the past two years.
+ trying all sorts of nummy new food like Mikado/Pocky - call me weeaboo all you want but those things kick Cadbury's fingers in the nuts :3 - and Chinese meals. Num num bean curd.
+ Finally getting out bedrooms swapped, it's miles better sleeping in that room than that other one but I still gotta mod a bookcase to store all my other shit in.
+ experimented with DVD recording and managed to clear away so much needed space in my bedroom it's unreal.
So so stuff
* my sudden interest in Harry Potter
* snowed like three times this year. It's in this category because it looked pretty but I hated walking on the ice.
* Reading Twilight
- having to take two blood tests in 3 months
- Grim reaper's been on a roll with celebs ages 50 and under
- the amount of times I had my internets cut off because we couldn't afford the bills at the time. Let's just say that the jobcentre have got my mum and dad completely fucked over.
- Both Eurovision and Comic relief blew. Honestly, footage of dying Africans were better to watch than the "comedy".
- had two colds but thankfully nothing much more.
- the amount of drama I got involved in both online and IRL, but mostly online. I'm so fed up with 10 year olds shitting everything up.
Um, a post about my targets for next year will probably come in my next journal.
Now, let's reflect the 2000s!
Why, 2000 was the year I first started using the internets at the tender age of 12. I had shitty Dreamcast internets back then so I missed out in the best Rayman 2 shit but that was probably for the best. Besides, over the past 10 years lots of juicy stuff about all my age old interests showed up thanks to Youtube, torrents etc. Then came Christmas 2000 when I got a Win98 computer with real internet, and that was probably when my um, "socialising" fired away.
By then, I started drawing thanks to seeing killer fanart on the net. I honestly hardly used to draw that much before then, but damn, if I'm honest, I wish my sudden constant doodling didn't interfere with my schoolwork. I really wanted at least 1 A at my GCSEs but I was only like, 5 marks away from one in Music. Speaking of which, 2001 was the year I pretty much got obsessed with being a singer, bless me. I wanted to take both Art and Music but for some reason, they could only do Drama [WORST SUBJECT EVER] and Art, and Drama and music, but not music and art. Thankfully music is a creative subject, and getting at least a C in any of the three was enough to get me into college doing Art and Design. That time I was learning Photoshop in my own time among other things. To be honest, a college course here only costed about £22 so dropping out of the next one I tried to do wasn't a big deal, in retrospect, but then, that was when I pretty much hit rock bottom.
I was 17-18 then, with no job, having to live on at most £20 a fortnight, and experimenting with shit like Flash was a nightmare. We tried submitting some shitty cartoon I spent 8 months on to BBC talent but that didn't make it to the shortlist so that was all that out of the window. But as an artist in general I pretty much soldiered on, and ended up making
Duckyboos, my Count Duckula fansite as a result from experimenting with web design.
After 2 years of slowly rotting in my bedroom, I was pretty much pushed into applying for volunteering, so I chose that one charity shop I spent the next two years working in. I did like getting good bargains there, but 2 more years of hanging up clothes and steaming them became so mind numbing I ended up quitting, but even before then I was still showing signs of deteriorating as far as my well being goes.
In fairness, I still live with my parents and barely do fuck all apart from playing videogames and going on the internets, but that's not the point. The jobcentre wasn't enough so I needed help from social services, but they never really wanted to help aspie kids since they don't class it as either a learning disability or a mental illness. Honestly, they asked my mum if I was suicidal over the phone. So then came the social workers [the one I had usually works with the elderly] that got me part of some of the projects that eventually got me the job I currently do, and I owe them one for that.
As far as my internet adventures go, I learned so much about life in general, perhaps more than I probably did at school, though quite a bit of all that I learned the hard way. The hard way makes you stronger most of the time. When you've been on it for as much as I have, you're always on top when people IRL are wondering what Rickroll and Chocolate Rain are, among other things. I've run into some really amazing things, though other things are not. You know what made these times really special? The vast majority of you. Whether we were friends from the very beginning or in recent times, it's thanks to you I'm a stronger person that I ever was when I started using the internets, and let's push that further shall we?
I hope that in the 2010s, I become independent enough to separate from my parents, and I also want to travel. Being stuck in the same country for the past 22 years can't be that good for your brain. I also hope to improve my drawing and other creativity skills, and become less socially inept than I've ever been.
Let's wrap this up to say, Happy new year,and happy 2010s!!!!
Reflecting the 2000s 
Thanks
Winter Downs
Bitter
Welcoming
Hi
this is so much fun 
